Thank you for joining me and welcome to this month's edition of my Hope for Healing newsletter! I feel blessed to have you here with me. I welcome and appreciate feedback. Feel free to reach out via my website contact page or through e-mail at firstname.lastname@example.org comments or questions.
As most of you know, I have always shared my own trauma-to-triumph stories as a source of inspiration, soul connection, and motivation for others. I am now at 1 year into this health battle with mycotoxin poisoning. It was in February 2021 that I first cried to my family, "I feel like I've been poisoned" yet I could not pinpoint how I knew this on a gut level. It took months of doctor visits and failed medications to finally pinpoint I was living in toxicity and my body was burdened with toxins. Mycotoxins to be precise. I want to take the opportunity to focus on the positives to come out of this year of struggles, battles, and heartaches. Because I want you to know that no matter what you may personally be making your way through, there are blessings and lessons to be found in the chaos.
Treasured friends have opened their homes to me/my family and allowed me to live with them on Fripp Island and Hilton Head Island in South Carolina, along with welcoming offers from Cincinnati, Ohio. I feel like a nomad moving around (now in a 3rd cozy house in five weeks' time), but I feel safe and embraced by love and support. Lesson: embrace love and support
With the help of my nutritionist, Hollie, of Happy Tummies, I have been able to make holistic changes and choices in my life that have helped bring my concerning TSH labs back into normal range without the use of thyroid medication. I, personally, prefer resolving the root problem. I have focused on detoxing, strengthening my gut microbiome, breathwork and meditation, along with helping my immune system calm so as not to be so autoimmune reactive. Lesson: open up to alternative possibilities
I have started back to EMDR therapy with a local practitioner whom I adore. As we survivors know, having the right chemistry, that good energy thing, is a necessary component of the healing work done in therapy. We recently had a session while I was a passenger in a car while traveling through open spaces (I have a lingering fear of open spaces related to the second bank robbery I was involved in where I was trapped between two armed gunmen, in an open space, after running from the bank. It was immersion therapy mixed with EMDR, tapping, and CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) all at once! By the time we hit the bridge taking us into Charleston, South Carolina, I was calm and filled with wonder and joy as I absorbed the beauty surrounding me as the sun danced across the water all around me. Lesson: allow healing to flow
I handed The Healing Place Podcast over to my higher power with the message of, "Here. Please take care of this while I focus on healing. Thank you." And it was done. This amazing show has hit a record-breaking month of downloads, doubling last month's audio downloads, which was also a record-breaking download month! All of this while I only added two interviews for the month of January. I continue to be in awe and gratitude of my blessings from this show and the beautiful souls who have come into my life as a result of it. Lesson: welcome new connections
December 29, 2021 autoimmune psoriasis resulting from mold toxicity
January 19, 2022 noticeable improvements once I moved out of the toxic environment
I recently shared this on The Healing Place Podcast Facebook page after it came across my radar from another Facebook post:
Me: Hello God.
Me: I'm falling apart. Can you put me back together?
God: I'd rather not.
God: Because you're not a puzzle.
Me: What about all the pieces of my life that fall to the ground?
God: Leave them there for a while. They fell for a reason. Let them be there for a while and then decide if you need to take any of those pieces back.
Me: You don't understand! I'm breaking!
God: No, you don't understand. You're transcending, evolving.
What you feel are growing pains. You're getting rid of the things and people in your life that are holding you back. The pieces are not falling down. The pieces are being put in place. Relax. Take a deep breath and let those things you no longer need fall down. Stop clinging to pieces that are no longer for you. Let them fall. Let them go.
Me: Once I start doing that, what will I have left?
God: Only the best pieces of yourself.
Me: I'm afraid to change.
God: I keep telling you: YOU'RE NOT CHANGING! YOU'RE BECOMING!
Me: Becoming, Who?
God: Becoming who I created you to be! A person of light, love, charity, hope, courage, joy, mercy, grace and compassion. I made you for so much more than those shallow pieces you decided to adorn yourself with and that you cling to with so much greed and fear. Let those things fall off you. I love you! Don't change! Become! Don't change! Become! Become who I want you to be, who I created. I'm gonna keep telling you this until you remember.
Me: There goes another piece.
God: Yes. Let it be like this.
Me: So... I'm not broken?
God: No, but you're breaking the darkness, like dawn. It's a new day. Become!! Become who you really are!!